...so I made another journal entry so there'd be 5 of them.

Hey, if other people can make pointless journals, why can't I?

Ok, so I came across some promotional stuff for this new anime that's coming out and it sounds like it's going to be awesome! It takes place in feudal Japan with, except it's an alternative timeline. There are these guys who immigrated to Japan, but they have trouble adjusting (language and culture and stuff get them into all kinds of crazy trouble), but eventually they end up forming their own ninja clan.

Here's a trailer:
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I really hope we get subs of this!

...but at any rate, that frickin' emo journal needs to get bumped off even more than the frickin' long one did. Speaking of which, there were actually a few projects I forgot to mention in that first one:

Night Light - More on this later.
More of the Same - Essentially a parody of the typical animated primetime sitcom like the Simpsons and Family Guy, though there's more to it than that, like the fact all the jokes are clean, the eldest son is a teenager that's awesomesauce incarnate, and the art direction is somewhat anime influenced. The father's still an obese retard though.
365- Essentially one of the stepping stone games to Joules, more on it later.

Oh yeah, that's another thing, Max is now Joules, just so you know.

So, actually, I guess that's all I really had to say, so thanks for reading. ^_^

...but here I am, not only making another journal entry, but essentially about to pour my heart out to a bunch of people who either never met me in person or are complete strangers to me, but meh, my last journal was too long anyways, it needed to get bumped off.

So at some point in my childhood, certain influences in my life inspired me to chase after a dream. Before I didn't really have any sense of purpose or worth, but at that point I sure did. I ran with it and I delved into education as the means to my end. Aside from some related interests in the spare time I'd left myself (including influences), this was pretty much what my world revolved around.

However, eventually, I'd come to find out the hard way that not only was what I thought I had been chasing after not all it was cracked up to be, but it was over my head. I didn't know what that felt like until that point. So I tried the second best thing. Then the third best thing.

By the time I figured out I should question both what I was trying to attain and how I was trying to attain it, I had spent most of my life savings, passed over several opportunities for actual work experience, tossed diet and exercise out the window, become a social recluse, lost almost all contact with most of my few real friends, and even distanced myself from and broke the trust of my family while still living under their roof.

As things stand, the economy is in trouble, I'm terribly out of shape, I can't get close to anybody for fear I'll just affect them negatively, I feel like I've wasted my youth away, and I don't have a future to look forward to. If it isn't the bum rotting away in a ditch, it'll be the trash still living with his mother or the weak, spineless coward who just couldn't go on anymore. I figure I've got a couple more years at most before it all hits the fan. By that time I'll have either pushed my parents to the point of kicking me out, torn myself away and driven off who-knows-where, or simply become seriously unsound of mind.

Now I know, I'm sorry, I'm acting like an emo, everybody's got their problems, plenty have it worse off than me, the last thing this place needs is more drama, and just about everything I've said here just generally makes me look bad, but I don't care anymore. I had been keeping all of this under wraps because I was afraid of what other people would think, but at this point I'm in a catch-22 anyways. At least now if I speak up, even if it's to someone I've never met in person (I have my own reasons I can't tell anyone close), there's that slim chance that someone might can and might will somehow help me out of this mess I've gotten myself stuck in. With that said, does anyone have any advice on what a guy in a desperate position can or should do?

Well, I guess I actually just made another long journal, but oh well, at least it's not as long as the last one. Anyways, to anyone who reads this journal, and especially to anyone who responds, thank you. Thank you.

Well, I've been a member here for a while now, and I've submitted alot of art, but I've been awfully quiet. For the most part, I've neither participated in the community nor interacted with my audience. Recently I've been feeling an obligation to address matters with both parties, thus my first, perhaps last, and long overdue journal entry. It's going to be a long one, so to anyone who reads this entry in full, you have my gratitude.


Speaking of gratitude, my first order of business is to thank my audience for their favs, comments and watches. I know I haven't said anything, but I've deeply appreciated every scrap of support I've received. I'm not just saying that, I'm encouraged whenever I see a new fav, comment or watch, so they mean alot to me. So again, thanks for the support.


My second order of business is to address my art. As it stands, I feel that my gallery reflects poorly on me, and I think it's only fair that I detail what to expect and what to look for.

My strengths:
-Writing
-Pencil/Pastel Drawing
-Photoshop

Note: I'm hoping to add animation to that list soon, one year I made the grave mistake of thinking decent drawing skills and a basic knowledge of flash would cut it and tried to make a flash for every occassion. I've made a point this year to show more restraint.

There are several projects that I'm "working" on (i.e. they're in developmental hell indefinitely):

-Max
--This is my primary project. Long story short, it's gonna be like my "dream video game." I'm still in the process of getting all the design concepts, character designs, and story on paper, but even after that I'm going to have to figure out how it's all gonna get programmed and licensed. Needless to say, I'm not really making this game so much as working towards it (i.e. I'm getting nowhere fast). The game is named after the titular character and it's something of a cross between a real-time RPG and a shooting platformer, though the gameplay varies throughout. Should anyone by any chance express interest in participating in this project, I could make another journal that goes into more detail.

-Cancer
--This is sort of my secondary project. It's gonna be a highly stylized limited animated series about the titular character, Cancer, who is your typical antihero. In the ruins of a city, a rag-tag resistance militia uncovers Cancer in the hopes that he'll tip the balance in their war against the Plague, but he turns out to be more than they bargained for. Again, if anyone wants to participate in this project, I can go into more detail in another journal.

-Sugar and Violence
--This will be another limited animated series. However, whereas Cancer takes place in the overworld of a city's ruins, this series takes place in the underworld of a city's ruins. The story revolves around the exploits of a fearsome brawler and his "apprentices," all young girls. While the brawler is intimidating and brutish for the most part, he has an undeniable soft spot for the girls. However, they aren't made of just sugar and spice either. Again, if you're interested in participating, I'll journal more details later.

-<Untitled>
--...Yeah, I haven't even come up with a title for this one yet, but it'll be another limited animated series. The basic premise is about a band of misfits with ironic powers on the run. The lead character a small, scrawny antihero who supposedly could wipe all life off the earth if he so much as throws a punch too hard. He has a brother who's tall and obese but can travel at extraordinary speeds. Another guy has fire powers, which sucks for him since he's hot natured. There's also a girl who has ice powers but is cold natured. The two of them quarrel alot, but there are undertones of attraction between them. Finally, there's also an unprecedented genius on the team, but he comes off as a complete retard and his calculated operations look more like a streak of dumb luck. Again, I'll journal more for anyone interested in participating.

-Anonymous
--This'll be a limited comic series. When a teenager is at the wrong place at the wrong time, his entire family is taken under the wing of the Witness Protection Program and assume new identities. However, the complicated but persistent endangerment of his family forces the teenager into a dual life, and soon the whole world seems to be after him. This is actually the only other project anybody can pitch into, but anyways feel free to tell me if your interested and I'll journal more details later.

-Blood Curse
--This is gonna be a horror novel. I don't really wanna spill any details at this time, just know to look out for it.

-Nooks & Crannies
--...Okay, even I don't know where I'm going with this one yet, but I might as well mention it since since I already submitted a teaser for it.

-Misty Eyes
--I've actually already submitted this. It was intended as a one-shot short story to help me out of my writer's block, but depending on the feedback I get for it I'll improve and expand on it, maybe make a whole novel. In fact I purposefully teased the reader at several points.

As you've probably figured out already, work in these projects won't make up the bulk of my gallery. In fact, while I'd like to think that everything I submit will be of high quality, odds are you're going to find some crap that I'd rather not get quite as much attention. This is because some of it will be experimental, practice or even OCD-induced (in case you haven't noticed, I've avoided letting my submission count fall on the 4's, 8's or 9's). However, I'd like to think my labors of love will be distinguishable from my, well, luke-warm labors.



My third order of business is about commissions:
-One slot open. Once it's taken I'm closed until I'm done.
-No licensed characters (unless it's a parody).
-To be honest, I don't know much about how commissions work since I've never done one, and I doubt anyone would be interested; however, if you are interested, I can negotiate commissions case by case.


Well, I guess that's all I gotta say for now, and you probably won't hear from me until the next blue moon, since my life is dull and I rarely have anything worth saying. Anyways, Thanks for reading! ^_^